Births, Deaths and Compensation !

While I continue to wait for Medical intervention I am not wasting any time in writing and publishing on Amazon's KDP.

To me it is all a practice run for the BIG ONE  . . . . .

" Can I interest you in a Fungus Lord? "

It seems a million years ago that I decided to write about my 'on-going' Medical Negligence.

Through these years of being diagnosed - then a LUMP rejected - so many family members have died including my first husband who died a only a few days ago.

It's a true saying that ~

"Life's what's happening while you're making plans!"

I have also just published a Short Story about the day my late sister gave birth on my bed.

A funny, crazy, manic day at my house ~

The story is called 

"What's For Dinner Luv?"


Going back to the Medical ~ The only intervention I have at present is an Occupational Therapist. She isn't happy at my situation (which has been described umpteen times on previous Blogs) but needless to say, my abdominal swelling and disabilities and inabilities have become so bad that I think my time isn't too far away. My former CPN said years ago that because of my Hospital and GP's attitudes towards me, this will be an A+E case eventually. If I swell or grow much more I swear something's going rip me open. I am SO sore with all the internal stretching.
Can't wait to bring all my years of moaning on this Blog to a final and victorious conclusion AND lose weight again.

Roll on healing!
Roll on vindication!
Roll on compensation!









 

Children's Books Published

While I wait for Medical intervention I have managed to put my mind into action and publish my 2 Children's Books.

Too incapacitated to do anything physical, this is a real blessing.

Rather than sit around waiting for my miracle to happen I have had to force myself to gear myself into action.

These first 2 books have been a learning curb for my BIG one ~

" Can I interest You in a Fungus Lord ? "

The reason for this title is this ~

With the Food Intolerance came swelling that never went down unless I starved myself.
As I experimented on a very strict YEAST FREE, SUGAR FREE DIET, the painful bump seemed to reduce somewhat.   
The swelling which seemed like growth, fungal growth got smaller and smaller but never completely vanishing.
As it did so, it felt like my pelvic area (my THEN tiny little belly) was alive with painful prickly activity which became SO painful that my daughter had to call an ambulance and cart me off to A+E.

Not that it did any good.
I was told it was in my mind (as always) and sent home to suffer it on my own.

I ALWAYS hit a brick wall and it took me YEARS to find out why.

In fact it was my 47 year old sister who discovered the derogatory comments on my notes just 4 weeks before she died on my sofa.


My problem clearly started with YEAST, then went onto to sugar and eventually everything else.

As this ' Lumpy ' thing grew so did the surrounding areas, causing me to gain excessive weight and develop extremely high Blood Pressure.

As an out-patient at my local Hospital I approached a vehemently unapproachable Consultant (who's mentioned in my earlier Blogs as he was in the papers).

As soon as I mentioned YEAST he accused me of believing I had Cancer even though I'd never even thought of it, let alone bring it up.

I started to learn about the Yeast/Fungus/Cancer connection and began to understand why he connected it, but not why he was SO hard on me until the discovery in my Medical Notes.

The newspaper reports from previous Blogs reveal his habitual bad handling of patients.


I learnt about how Candida Albicans grow and also about Endometriosis.

The articles I read on Endometriosis state that fungal growth can occur on the outside of the Uterus and one way that sometimes helps is to have a hysterectomy to stop a woman's Hormone Factory FEEDING the fungus which sometimes leads to CANCER.

I recognised that all hormonal related foods and chemicals were absolutely feeding SOMETHING and I have mentioned this several times in written articles to medical authorities - but it fell on deaf ears for a long time till I eventually had a FULL Hysterectomy.

The woman in the bed next to me was also having the same op.

She had been into Hospital previously with a very bad case of Endometriosis and had to have her COLON hoovered to remove the FUNGUS.

I have been so UTTERLY patronised when I have discussed all these possibilities with Doctors.
 
These symptoms have happened in the bodies of many a patient and some were also treated like me ~ very badly. Some went on to develop Cancer AND DIED, but others lived to tell the tale and be compensated.

I have also read that STONES can also cause an over growth of Yeast - causing a vast array of multiple ailments.
I have symptoms (and a diagnosis) of a Ureteral  Stone (which can be life-threatening).
AND I had a hysterectomy to eradicate any possible Endometriosis.
Unfortunately it didn't work.

And as soon as I began to reintroduce Yeast and Sugar back into my diet - thinking my hormone factory removal would have contributed to a certain extent, my body literally BLEW UP like a balloon.
I gained weight IMMEDITAELY and it never went down ~ rather the opposite.
I eventually doubled in size and became quite disabled from the inside out.

The proliferation I experience when I eat, drink, take medication or apply toiletries has spread ALL over my body but my local Medical Borough will NOT buy it.

A friend of mine has a male friend with a diagnosis of a severe overgrowth which HAS spread ALL over his body and he has been advised to refrain from ALL Yeasted and Fermented Foods.

I started to talk about these very symptoms to Doctor's in 1999 and have been in the battle from hell ever since.
The initial problem did actually start in 1997.

Hence the title for my Medical Negligence Book.

I strongly believe there is some kind of fungal problem occurring in my body, connected to the Stone diagnosis, the Food Intolerance, Hormonal problems, multiple ailments and weight gain which has been negligently overlooked because of supposition from my notes.

Back tracking to my Book Publications.

These Children's Kindle Book Publications almost seem to be a practice run for my more serious  pre-destined  ~  Can I Interest You in a Fungus Lord ?


So at present I have these 2 under my belt ~


Fringeless + Friendless

Fribi The Planetarian Tour Guide








Alena's Arts 


























 

The pain of a Hypochondriac

Blogging is easy when you're not in constant pain.

These remarks are coming from a certified Hypochondriac.

Been in terrible pain today.
There has been swelling within the swelling in my left side.

(Well - I WAS diagnosed with a Stone in the left Ureter by a non-prejudice Urologist many years ago).

This swelling has been STINGING so bad ALL DAY LONG.

The pain has brought tears to the eyes of this Hypochondriac but years ago a former CPN assured me that before I get proper care, I would have to be rushed into A&E in AGONY!

Pain's not enough!
It's got to be AGONY for my Medical Enemies to see what they've overlooked all these years.

I used to be so fit and healthy at 40- ish and I revelled in it . . . losing almost 6 stone and being at my most leanest, fittest, muscliest  I had ever been and have gone from THIS ~
                                                                       
                                                                        
                                                                       

                                                                        



to this                                            
                                                                       

                                                                       

 

 

. . . . . ugly fat face not included !

 

 

The swelling started in the top of my left leg and graduated to my lower pelvic area and pubic bone.

 

I was treated with antibiotics for reoccurring Pelvic infections but even though the medication cleared the infections, it seemed to FEED a lump.

 

 Then the Food Intolerance started and I felt like I had been poisoned.

I couldn't stand up when I ate Yogurt, Marmite, Brewers Yeast and sometimes Bread.

I recognised the YEAST connection but was very naïve about Yeast Infections and related conditions.

 

I couldn't help but notice what certain foods were doing but I eventually realized that YEAST was the main culprit and before long Sugar joined the queue, then eventually every kind of food and drink.

 

I developed a noticeable bump in my pelvic area that no amount of walking or exercise would flatten or remove.

 

Prior to all these alien symptoms I successfully lost weight by following Weight Watchers ~ but I didn't attend the meetings ~ I did it from home because I had developed serious Agoraphobia.

 

I learned about Pelvic Floor Exercises and got stuck into to them  before this condition racked my body.

 

I told Midwives about the pain and a feeling of my womb hanging down in 1997 then 3 months after the birth of my daughter in 1998 - 15 1/2 years ago, I was examined during a LATE Post Natal examination (my fault) but the Doc said that she couldn't find any abnormality and praised me to high-heaven for the weight-loss and sent me off for a Tummy Tuck and other corrective surgery.

 

Now thinner than my 2 eldest daughters, and with the equivalent of an AIR-BRUSHED stomach, I was in vanity heaven.

 

My hours of power-walking, weight-lifting, press-ups,

rowing and pelvic exercises had paid off - but left me with an ugly sheath of hanging skin.

 

I was Okayed as MENTALLY SOUND for the big op, but as my symptoms worsened, surgery was put on hold while I was further investigated - but things didn't go plain sailing AT ALL and I found myself in the hands of prejudice, uncaring, authoritive, belligerent Doctors and Consultants ~ Medical Goliaths who ate me whole and spat me out.

 

In my distress, I turned to God and my Bible and eventually I received revelation after revelation.

I believed it then and I believe it now that God showed me that I had a Stone in my left ureter BEFORE diagnosis, and that I would be Medically neglected but later return to the Urologist who had rejected the Stone (the one which had been seen on my CT scan and identified as a suspected raisin by the nurse doing the scan).

 

Can you imagine how that will sound in Court ?

 

 

I had already told my GP in faith before diagnosis that I believe that God had showed me what the problem was and that is why she sent me to Urology.

 

I believe that God revealed to me years ago that I would go through this awful valley later on in life and how I encountered this will be revealed in my book -

 " Can I interest You in a Fungus Lord ? "

 

The very reason for this Blog.

 

As my pain and disability become more severe and with the backing of my new CPN and Occupational Therapist, this illness will come to a head and the prejudice and negligence of my persecutors will be revealed.

 

This Medical borough have already paid out thousands due to their Medical Negligence.

 

I can't wait for it all to end so that I can be whole again and be a physically capable (widowed) mum to my 2 bereaved teenagers.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Medical Negligence

I used to be so skinny with an inverted stomach but then some horrible changes started to occur inside my body.

I was eventually diagnosed with a Stone in my Left Ureter and even though something showed up on the CT scan the Consultant Urologist rejected the diagnosed Stone and refused to listen to my vast array of symptoms.
Several GP's and Hospital Consultants told me that I had NO SWELLING and NO PAIN !
It was ALL IN MY MIND and I was sent to a Psychiatrist who echoed the GP's thoughts but also offered me Anti-Psychotic Drugs.
Definitely NOT, thanks.

I also got diagnosed with a Hernia but the neglect and the patronisation goes on almost 15 years later.

Not swollen.
Not in pain.
Totally Psychosomatic.

What do you think ?

 

Last week I ordered some VIRGIN COCONUT OIL after reading about it's many benefits and attributes.

I needed to test it out on my son's Autism/Aspergers/Bronchial problems, possibly via some recipes.

BUT in my impatient eagerness, I shovelled half a desert spoon into my mouth and immediately felt that I could easily qualify for  "I'm a Celebrity - Get me out of here!"

My mouth needed scouring for the next 2 days.

Oh - it's NOT for the faint-hearted !

I take my hat off to ALL the Celebs who dare to contaminate their taste buds with unmentionables but I dare them to try

COLD SOLID CLINGY GREASY COCONUT OIL

I might make some Coconut Flapjacks later.

I'll get back to you with my FOODY Medicinal experiments !

 

More on Coconut Oil

Yesterday I homed in a little about the properties of Coconut Oil but I am aware that I really have only just scratched the surface ~ in fact I can't wait to delve deeper.

In my eagerness I ordered a jar without investigating it's full benefits and unbeknown to me, earned a £5 bonus just for signing up.


http://www.123-money.info/affiliates/jrox.php?id=131


While browsing the interesting Blog of Coconut Oil.co.uk I was drawn to several articles about the amazing healing powers of Coconut Oil.

Having a son with Asperger/ADHD and more, I was naturally interested in the write-up referring to the link between the condition and this Medicinal/Cosmetic Foodstuff.

The Blog deals with a good variety of conditions but the ones which relate more to my son are the ones about Autism and Bronchial problems.
He is currently suffering from his annual 'Bad Chest' and I was planning on taking him to the Doctor for ANTI-BIOTICS but have now changed my mind after what I have just read in this Blog ~


Inserts from the site's Blog

Coconut Oil For Bronchial Infection  

Bronchial congestion is inflammation of air passages (bronchi) in the lungs and the trachea. Inflammation can be caused by infection due to bacteria and viruses (common cold and flu) or other irritants such as fumes, dust, or pollutants. This condition is worsened in patients who smoke or suffer from asthma.

Bronchial congestion is characterized by cold, cough and associated difficulty in breathing.
Coconut oil is anti-bacterial and has antimicrobial properties, so it effectively prevents the spread of cancer cells and enhances the immune system.

It is an anti-fungal and also anti-inflammatory suppressing inflammation and repairing tissues that may contribute to harmful intestinal microorganisms that cause chronic inflammation. Hence, it is ideal for bronchial congestion.

And this :

Seasonal Colds and Flus can be extremely inconveniencing, but the best course of action is to use natural means and allow the body to run its course.

An occasional cold or flu is the body’s natural cleansing and detoxifying response. Antibiotics prevent this detoxifying process and weaken the body.

Consuming four to six tablespoons of the coconut oil per day during the cold and flu is highly effective. This can be used in cooking, smoothies or consumed right off the spoon. Extra virgin coconut oil contains large amounts of lauric, capric and caprylic acids, which are potent antiviral and antifungal compounds.

http://www.123-money.info/affiliates/jrox.php?id=131


Other relevant articles include:

Thyroid function
Skin
Constipation
Aids
HIV
Weight Loss
Baldness


I laughed when I saw BALDNESS because I just had my first Children's Kindle Book published on 25/11/13  ~ about a paranoid girl with no fringe.
My fringeless girl could have done with a Coconut Oil Scalp Rub.


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Coconut Oil Health Benefits

Because of my health issues I am awake most of the night so I get to watch a lot of TV.

Lately I have been to drawn to a lady Doctor who survived Cancer of the Pancreas. She lived to tell the tale because of the diet she followed ~
A RAW FOOD diet (mostly raw but with some cooked)


http://www.felicitycorbinwheeler.org/


Recently on Revelation TV, Dr Felicity Corbin Wheeler highlighted the benefits of Coconut Oil ~ not just intestinally but holistically.
Because of my complex health issues I decided to try Coconut Oil for it's diverse properties.

I can't comment just yet but it was and is highly relevant to Felicity's healing.

I know that Coconut Oil was used as a substitute Plasma during the second world war.

I have severe food intolerance because of a growth but while I wait for my local medical professionals to fulfil their Hippocratic obligation to me I will not despise the insight of others who have found healing via natural remedies or miracles.

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Fringeless & Friendless

Re-cap:

I started this Blog way back in early 2007.

Was diagnosed with a stone in the left ureter after feeling sharp pain, swelling, terrible food intolerance, drunkenness, lethargy, disability and severely highly blood pressure.

Something was seen on the CT scan but it was rejected.
My diverse symptoms were both rejected and neglected and the lump I could feel just grew and grew and caused me massive weight gain.

Have had several investigations and a full hysterectomy.

My huge swelling has disabled me and kept me mostly house bound.
A CPN comes to see me about Agoraphobia but she can't move forward with it because she can feel a 'moving lump' in my abdomen and is as adamant as I am that the Agoraphobia will remain while my disability and the knock-on effects of the injustice remains.

I think it's fair to say that all the symptoms I have blogged about over the years are very evident.
They have been obvious to 2 CPNs who came to deal primarily with my ' MENTAL' problems, that is, Agoraphobia and Anxiety.

Additionally I was diagnosed with a Hernia but the GP also failed to follow that up even though it looks obvious that there's something there.

I was amazed that I recently passed the ESA assessment ~

mostly because it's so hard to stay on it but also because of the GP's failure to support me.

I have been kept on the support group for another 3 years.

This means that I don't have to attend meetings and appointments.

However, I believe the reason is to do more with the Agoraphobia than the neglected physical diagnosis.

After being in receipt of a higher rate of DLA, my new Doctors refused to support me and I gave up trying for 5 years.
When I eventually appealed, I was awarded the lowest rate - indefinitely.

All of this neglect is related to a destructive comment on my Medical Records during my childhood. It has given me an incorrect label of Hypochondriasis.

During these years of illness, I lost my niece to Anorexia, my sister (her mother) to heart failure, 2 unforgettable friends, last year my dad and a few weeks later my husband.

My sister died on my sofa at 47 and I attempted to resuscitate her but obviously ineffectively and my husband ~ well he died in my bathroom last September.
I really struggled to climb the stairs to get to him - only to have to go back downstairs to get a sledge hammer to break a hole in the locked door.
There he was, lying on the floor just starring up at me.

My disability hindered me from following the Paramedics phone instructions for chest compressions.
My huge swollen, painful belly caused me to lose balance and I nearly fell on top of him.
Thankfully on the first couple of compressions 2 paramedics flew up my stairs and took over.

They got my husband back after 40 minutes ~ that is, they got his heart going again.
But he had already died of his RUPTURED BERRY ANYEURISM.

Now, here I was - ill - medically neglected with 2  back to back bereavements - 2 young teenagers, one with Autism/Aspergers and everything else that goes with it.
Stuck between a rock and a hard place ~ "What to do? What to do?"
So I stuck to THE ROCK ~ that is the Jesus I know and trust because ONLY he could get me through this.
I am definitely NOT one of those strong types but all of this must be making me stronger.
But I DO wish I could experience some calm ~ there's been far too much storm for my liking.

In my PAST LIFE I was a Freelance Artist and Writer ~ then Alena Wright (now Richards)

Apart from painting and doing line drawings for a small history publisher, I also wrote 2 Children's Books but if they weren't put on the review shelf for 2 or 3 months, they were returned as rejected.

 When I became ill my bodily chemistry began to change and as a result, changed ME.

Trying to stand up without pain or difficulty put me off painting and writing.
Feeling very heavy and sore in my abdomen put me off.
Always sitting uncomfortably put me off.
Overwhelming lethargy also ROBBED me of the desire to even THINK about it.

So the months have rolled by and I haven't been ONE been interested in using the gifts and talents that I love. A couple of weeks ago when I was in an exceptionally dark place - all of a sudden, my thoughts completely changed from dark to light.

"Use the tools you have!" is what came to me ~ something that I had read in one my daily e-mails from Pastor Joel Osteen.
He is supposed to be a controversial preacher but I need encouragement at this time in my life and I definitely got it.

Not only have my desires and artistic enthusiasm been resurrected - my 2 children's books have come forth out of the catacombs and have received some resurrection power.

One of them, FRINGELESS + FRIENDLESS was published 3 days ago on KINDLE, KINDLE FIRE, KINDLE PAPERWHITE, KINDLE HD, i-Pad and i-Phone.

I NEVER expected this out of the doom and gloom of my life.

I am SO excited that I have something to be excited about.
Because I cannot tolerate medication I haven't taken any anti-depressants and I cannot take BP medication.

I had to walk away from my laptop as the book was in the process of being published because I couldn't physically cope with the excitement.

Here's FRINGELESS + FRIENDLESS

If you buy PLEASE leave me a comment in the comment box and click on which star rating you think the book deserves.

Many thanks !

Enjoy reading   

Fringeless & Friendless by Alena CB Richards

















 

Been a long time since I posted because there's been nothing new to report on this illness.
On my last visit to the Docs over 2 years ago I was told that my symptoms were . . . . . . . . . .

 " Ridiculous in the world of medicine. "

Where has this Doctor been ?

I was diagnosed with a stone in my left ureter around 1999/2000 according to my valid and obvious symptoms - and then again - a few years later.

Even though there was (and still is) obstruction, massive swelling, massive weight gain, severe food intolerance (starting with yeast then sugar and so on) continuous pain, disability, stroke level high blood pressure, constant urinating, sleepless nights and much much more ~ my symptoms have been ignored.

This has been a way of life for a number of years.

Several Ultrasound scans revealed nothing but a dry bladder even though it was bursting to overflowing and I'd always pass volumes of water immediately after each scan.

My physical changes and disability have been verbalized by several nurses and medical staff but dismissed by an array of prejudice Doctors.

Some small things were seen on my CT scan but presumed to be 'nothing' or 'possibly food.'

Prejudism was obvious from the start - long before all the investigations and
hysterectomy.

I was labelled a Hypochondriac at 9 years old on my medical records and this has been the bane of my life.

This illness started with an itch 14 1/2 years ago and has never been concluded because of this labelling.

Around 1999/2000  I was okayed as 'mentally stable' for corrective surgery but later diagnosed with hypochondriasis ~ due to medical negligence because it was suggested that further physical investigations would be carried out but they wern't and I should have been listened to - but I wasn't.
Instead I was insulted both verbally and in writing.


I am a Christian who very much believes in Gods reality and am in no doubt that He is on my side.
Over 25 years ago He showed me that I would suffer later on in life and eventually have to be rushed into Bassetlaw Hospital with labour pains (even though I have no womb) ~ back to those who have neglected and persecuted me.
The labour pains would be due to Urinary Blockage.

God told me more than 25 years before any of this began that I would be ill, persecuted, healed, vindicated and compensated.

He said I would be surrounded by enemies (medical and other) but that He would not only deliver me from them but heal me via the urologist who neglected me and compensate me for years of suffering and negligence.

If I had relied on man to be my help and intervention I am sure I would have felt suicidal, but I thank I God that I can say without reservation that He has NEVER EVER let me down ~ whether short trial or long trial.


Calvary is my rubbish dump!

By prayer - bringing all my stuff to Him - to the Cross and leaving it /dumping it with HIM, God showed up in amazing ways and revealed how He has a plan for my life and how He will fulfil it.

Unexpectedly, out of the blue, He taught me about Yeast problems (how to starve it) The Yeast Sugar Endemetriosis Hormone link and Hormone fed problems.
He revealed to me that I needed and would have a hysterectomy
Shortly after this unexpected revelation , which He confirmed 4 times, I did have one in Doncaster Hospital.

This situation is awful and it seems like it will never end but He showed me that in 2012 it will end ~ shortly after I am 54.

Last September, fed up with the whole ordeal, I asked Him,

" How much longer Lord ? "
 
My Bible was open (at random) on my knee and the first words I saw were -

" ABOUT THIS TIME NEXT YEAR " 

This lines up with former revelations about the ilness lasting 15 years and ending when I am 54 in 2012.

After the urologist gave me the negative CT scan report I boldly reassured him -  in faith -  that one day he would have my PLUMBLINE in his hand, operating it on it.

Obviously this sounds ludicrous to the carnal mind ~ to those who haven't experienced the love and presence of Jesus Christ in their life but to me, hearing from God (in different ways) is the absolute norm.

Years ago I cried out to Him to heal the pain in my groin and expressed my anxiety about how yeasted products were making me suffer.

I randomly opened my Bible and the first thing I saw was about yeasted products. . . . . .Deuteronomy 29:6 . .

" YOU ATE NO BREAD AND DRANK NO WINE OR OTHER  FERMENTED DRINK.
   I did this so that you may know I am the Lord your God "

I had addressed a yeast problem to Him and He spoke back to me about REFRAINING FROM YEAST !

He didn't heal me immediately as I expected him to, but began to guide me in the valley of affliction starting with instructions about Yeast problems and a Yeast Free, Sugar Free Diet
.
This was the beginning of an amazing journey of Gods guidance and revelation about the horrible years that lay ahead.

I asked my daughter to get some information from College but she couldn't get what I asked for. Instead she brought me a book about Allergies, Viruses and Fungus's ~

A Complete Guide to Food Allergy and Food Intolerance 

She had no idea that this book was just what I needed to help me to understand what was happening to me.
She couldn' have chosen a better book.
It was one of many answers to prayer.
It didn't cure me but it helped me to understand about my intolerance to Food, Medication, Toiletries. Herbs and even Water.
This book reassured me that I wasn't the phsycotic hypochondriac that Doctors had portrayed me to be.

My physical distortions and disability were enough for a small minority of medical staff and GP administrators to recognise there was indeed something wrong.

Rolling about my sofa in pain holding my groin and reading the book,  I started laughing my head off as I heard myself say to Jesus .......


" CAN I INTEREST YOU IN A FUNGUS LORD ? "

It was the funniest thing I had heard in a long time and I was in stitches.

 
I said . . . . .

" I'M GUNNA WRITE A BOOK ABOUT THIS ONE DAY  ! "

(about the problem - that is)

I believed then that ONE DAY was very close, but I was wrong.
It was years away.
God only reveals what we can cope with at any given time.
He knows I couldn't have coped with long term bad news.

For instance - losing my 20 year old niece and 2 years later my 47 year old sister (her mum).

After the death of my sister, my (then) CPN, suggested I invest in my very first PC especially after the new GP's had me down as a mental case and failed to support my new DLA Claim.
Thanks to them I lost £396 per month.
One Doctor told me how big I was and to get running around the field to ' GET SOME WEIGHT OFF '

I had manged to successfully do just that prior to the development of this illness - losing almost 6 stones, but then I began to swell and gain weight horrendously after the yeast problem started - doubling in size.
This Doctor didn't give me the time of day at all and all my appeals to the DLA and Medical Services fell on deaf ears.

Soon, a fully fledged PC user, I was blogging about my Medical Moan.


Deep down in the valley where all else failed - Doctors, family, fellow Christians, loved ones, medication, it was just me and Jesus and I would NOT have had it any other way.

He kept showing up and answering questions I never knew I had.


I HATE this trial but He fulfilled every promise He proclaimed while on this earth.

To never leave me or forsake me.
To answer when I call.
To be with me in trouble and deliver me from it.
To be with me to the very end.

He has shown Himself to be more than just a faithful, loving and Holy God.
He is funny and FULL of surprises.

I love Him dearly and I KNOW He loves me.

I eventually realised throughout all the rejection and physical pain, that writing my book is undoubtedly Gods will.
I believe the title was given to me by the Holy Spirit and is His idea and His blueprint for my life.

It will help others in my situation when Doctors say . . . . . . . . . .

" Your Symptoms Sound Ridiculous in The World of Medicine ! "

Mum's mental

Today is my birthday and I am off to the PSYCHIATRIST !

This may not seem relative to the main subject of my Blog,
but it is.

Last year after my 9 year old son started talking ' Death talk ' and dreaming ' Death dreams ' I knew it was time to take him to the Doctors.

He had been displaying all manner of strange symptoms (from birth) and was being bullied at school to the point of self-harming and wanting to die.

I believed that his strangeness was attracting the bullying and after re-iterating my sons serious and diverse long on going symptoms in writing, we were sent to the Child Psychotherapist.

The outcome then, was that I myself needed Psychiatric help and my son did not display any of the concerns I mentioned in my letter to the Doctor AND the Psychotherapist.

That was last August (2008)

Since then I have had all hell on but do not have time to explain at this moment
(because of my appointment which I promised to keep - albeit under protest)

In the months which followed,

• Jamie was relentlessly bullied by teacher and pupils in front of witnesses.
• The Schools Multi-Agency team disliked my sense of urgency and method of written expression and all rooted for me to get Psychiatric help.
• The school was reluctant to take me seriously and were slow to act (negligent and prejudice in my view)
• After some serious incidences Jamie was far too scared to go to school and eventually refused, threatening to run away if I sent him.
• He was continually coming home from school and giving himself a ' Good Head Bashing '
• The Head thought a TRIP would do him good (urrrgghh - makes my blood boil)
• Social Services threatened me to " GET TO THE PSYCHIATRIST OR JAMIE GOES UNDER CHILD PROTECTION !"
• I was urged to lodge a complaint with the Board of Governors, OFSTED and DCSF which I will explain later
• After a continuity of symptomatic outbursts Jamie was finally diagnosed with
• ASPERGERS / AUTISM
• ADHD
• OCD
• GENETIC SELF-HARM
• ANXIETY
• DEPRESSION
• SOCIAL PRAGMATIC DISORDER

So after all that, the mother WAS correct.
My son DID have something wrong which was attracting the bullying and much more.
The focus of attention was on ME and my unofficially supposed Psychosis when it should have been firmly fixed on my son.

My complaint was not upheld yet the bullying raging teacher left his post coincidentally early.

And I still have to go to the Psychiatrist.

Social Services have now closed the case.

What hell this Medical District have put me through for the last 12 years with my own health issues and now my sons.

The case with my son is a chance to peel back one of the labels Bassetlaw Hospital have stuck on me.

Gotta go - catch you later !